It's Friday... You know what that means...
WEEKEND IS ALMOST UPON US!! That was me trying to be positive. Actually its Friday and that means I had my worst school. Actually I was really happy about coming today but all was ruined by 6 grade -2 class in my last period. I had the whole day of third graders and that meant positive, happy, smilely faces. We went over colors and introduced new ones that they had never heard of. We played BINGO and I even got to teach them Mele Kalikimaka (Merry Christmas) song. But all was ruined in the last period of the day true to they're reputation in this blog.
I was so "bummed" after the class I called William and Takemoto if I should take drastic measures and leave the school right then and there. It was a good thing that no one picked up the first time. But William did call me right back and explained, logically my options. So now I have cooled down.
These sixth graders don't want to listen at all. I really think they're boycotting me. So sitting here I wonder what would Onizuka Sensei do? (Just for you Lisa) So anyway what would a delinquent ex-biker ganger member, who's only dream was to become and awesome teacher do in my situation? Let them do exactly what they wanted to do and "save" each kid one at a time before long all the kids in his class are on his side. So you might ask "What have you done Chris?" Well good thing you asked I've done everything I could think of. Ignoring them, trying to discipline them, embarrass them, try to become "close" with them, gave them the silent treatment, etc. Nothing has worked. What did my fellow colleagues say? Well they told me I can either cause a bog fuss and humiliate the school therefore something drastic can take place or suck it up because they won't be here next year. Laugh at them when they go to junior high and get bumped back down the totem pole and get bullied by the upper classmen. For some of these kids I would love to see that day. I think I would even go as far as to say that I would pay money to sit in their class and watch them crash and burn. Sounds evil but I think the word "hate" fits into this situation quite nicely.
Nah I don't think I could do that. I really want to be a good teacher and get them to change their attitudes about the subject. But no homeroom teacher to help me, no motivation from the students, too many head/class clowns, and no motivation in my part. This past week we had the mid year seminar and I went to a motivation lecture. I honestly would say that I really want to change my attitude before facing this school and be the better person to rise above it all. And I really did go into the class thinking/hoping that everything would be ok and that I could handle everything they threw at me. Which I did. Where I messed up was when it was something that they didn't give me when I lost it... Respect. I was not trying to be Hitler, but I mean for the class to run smoothly there needs to be some kind of order. I started to use all my defensive mechanisms and when all else failed I fell hard. I became one of them and disrespected them right back. Taking their papers away, throwing them away, nagging them, etc... it was ugly. Although seeing three third classes today and doing bingo and singing Mele Kalikimaka over a hundred times compared to the last class it was nothing. So exhausted... of everything.
On a positive note, finally gonna get my hold 'em face on and play some cards. Kevin and Val being the awesome people that they are, invited and set another great outing to their home to play some cards. That means the alcohol will be flowing and plenty of good company to go around. Thank god its the end of another Friday...
Break it down....
I was so "bummed" after the class I called William and Takemoto if I should take drastic measures and leave the school right then and there. It was a good thing that no one picked up the first time. But William did call me right back and explained, logically my options. So now I have cooled down.
These sixth graders don't want to listen at all. I really think they're boycotting me. So sitting here I wonder what would Onizuka Sensei do? (Just for you Lisa) So anyway what would a delinquent ex-biker ganger member, who's only dream was to become and awesome teacher do in my situation? Let them do exactly what they wanted to do and "save" each kid one at a time before long all the kids in his class are on his side. So you might ask "What have you done Chris?" Well good thing you asked I've done everything I could think of. Ignoring them, trying to discipline them, embarrass them, try to become "close" with them, gave them the silent treatment, etc. Nothing has worked. What did my fellow colleagues say? Well they told me I can either cause a bog fuss and humiliate the school therefore something drastic can take place or suck it up because they won't be here next year. Laugh at them when they go to junior high and get bumped back down the totem pole and get bullied by the upper classmen. For some of these kids I would love to see that day. I think I would even go as far as to say that I would pay money to sit in their class and watch them crash and burn. Sounds evil but I think the word "hate" fits into this situation quite nicely.
Nah I don't think I could do that. I really want to be a good teacher and get them to change their attitudes about the subject. But no homeroom teacher to help me, no motivation from the students, too many head/class clowns, and no motivation in my part. This past week we had the mid year seminar and I went to a motivation lecture. I honestly would say that I really want to change my attitude before facing this school and be the better person to rise above it all. And I really did go into the class thinking/hoping that everything would be ok and that I could handle everything they threw at me. Which I did. Where I messed up was when it was something that they didn't give me when I lost it... Respect. I was not trying to be Hitler, but I mean for the class to run smoothly there needs to be some kind of order. I started to use all my defensive mechanisms and when all else failed I fell hard. I became one of them and disrespected them right back. Taking their papers away, throwing them away, nagging them, etc... it was ugly. Although seeing three third classes today and doing bingo and singing Mele Kalikimaka over a hundred times compared to the last class it was nothing. So exhausted... of everything.
On a positive note, finally gonna get my hold 'em face on and play some cards. Kevin and Val being the awesome people that they are, invited and set another great outing to their home to play some cards. That means the alcohol will be flowing and plenty of good company to go around. Thank god its the end of another Friday...
Break it down....
posted by Chris at 8:13 PM
1 Comments:
hmmm... what WOULD onizuka sensei do.... =)
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